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2008-01-06T13:27:46Z

byebye paperheros, i've found my hero. unpluggedlove, very much plugged into love but yes. comment to be added there!

cutoutx

2007-12-24T09:23:16Z

dear world, i have moved.
because i need to get real

foggy realism

2007-12-03T13:21:27Z

This was my Saturday!

Hmm, woke up early and zoomed over to jackie's place with breakfast. Joseph was all cute in his pjs + vest, and the three of us just lazed on the bed under the cozy blanket watching shaggy dog or something like that. And then we fell asleep! Haha, but well woke up in time to meet up with kev stephen ricky (they had SAT again ><) to go to the christmas bazaar for FRESHLY GRILLED HAMBURGERS!!!! ...i think hamburgers are grilled? I didn't take any photos at the bazaar but it was pretty awesome this year. The new campus is HUGEEEEEE, and the infant side is really cute, the toilet cubicles are so tiny! They even have windows looking into the toilet! So cuuute, thats just incase you know..the infacts get into trouble in the toilet haha. In anycase we spent 99% of our time at the bazaar playing basketball before leaving to kevin's house.

kevin & his dog. I am now best friends with his dog its so adorable! I watched heroes episode 78910 at his house. I cried! They were really awesome though. Xiao Guai (the dog) kept me accompany on the piano chair for the straight 3 hours, lying quietly and staring into space. Muhaha he chose me over kevin!

We might might possibly be going to kevin's house for the new year, i'm not even sure if i'll be around but his house is awesomeeee. He has a roof garden with foozeball, hula hoops and lots of empty space where we can fool around. I had the best time there! ++we found out that kevin and eric can't hula hoop which is hilarioussss. I think we were pretty successful in imparting our skills to them though hahaha. It was just a really comical sight.

Have to do math homework, its been sometime since i've posted. So yup, this was my Saturday :) A good good very much needed break. Back to my math homework! I hope your weekend went great <3

spectroscopy

2007-11-29T13:03:43Z

i am ridculously bored and on the verge of going insane.
tmr i have a higher organic chem test which =murder suicide poison argh diedie.
the whole rubbish mechanism of nuleophilic substition and ????, why on earth did i take chemistry?!
i feel like killing and hitting myself on the head about a billion times now.
today i had my chinese orals, i got really flustered and red and hot and nervous, i think i was speaking incoherently, arrrrgh.

winter is here. i am growing fatter.

+i need to sell my clothes.
or secretly lose weight then i can take everyone by surprise once winter is over mwhahahaha.
its so annoying to have a skinny boyfriend, peeer presssureeeeeee.
i need to employ models. hahaha jackie looks like a girl and has better legs than me shiiit.

paperheros @ 2007-11-26T16:58:00

2007-11-26T09:07:56Z

oh hello i love my friends.
we have shitty weather now, and it pours all the time! We ordered pizza in today, no one could drag their lazy ass out.
&a group of us might have an awesome new year's gathering/sleepover/bbq. can't wait!

"the taiwan tank"

2007-11-25T11:55:41Z

saturday was pretty lovely.
we caught HITMAN, which isn't really too bad. haha but then again, you have to like those kind of killing murder shows to enjoy it. i also met up with charlotte's mum to exchange stuff. thank you chaaar (: loveyou!! char got us four these limited edition marc jacobs rings which are lovely lovely gorgeous. yay now for the four of us have something in common. hahaha (: we also then went shopping!!! jackie picked up a couple of things for me to try, and i bought a lovely grey wool jacket to wear to school! It's nice, long and even has a sash to tie around! &it was really embarrassing cause i accidentally took a size m for the jacket at first, and the guy was like..."oh you took an M, i think that'd be too big for you do you want me to find S for you?" then after switching sizes...another girl came up to me and said "S isn't the smallest size, shall i get XS for you?" +____+ jackie lushao was laughing his head off at me annoying idiot. at least he made it up by choosing a lovely jacket for me. ohoh and then it was time to shop for him! Unfortunately there weren't any sizes left for him :( it was all too big hahah, but yes our next buy is going to be a long sleeved shirt with rolled up sleeves for him :D

ohoh, zai zai from f4 is sooo hot now! ok at least to me, cause i like pretty boys and that whole look. he cut his hair <3<3 haha i still rmb how i used to watch meteor garden and swoon over zai zai cause he was all shy and cold and reserved in the show which is soo attracted to me.

haha ok, he wasn't actually wearing this tank out for the whole day. he had a shirt over but hahaha i forced him to take off the shirt to take photos cause i am amused and "obsessed" with how so so many taiwanese boys like wearing a tight tank with jeans like this out. hahahaha i think it is a very cute cute taiwanese look on jackie. hehee.

i think he looks better now compared to when he had long hair

but i look like a chipmunk!

2007-11-22T12:02:40Z

integration math test today was a horror, math higher papers can make the simplest thing as hard as @)$*$%$#. i think i was ready to kill myself. It made me go into depression cause i think i'm going to fail this test which is a nightmare cause i don't like &cannot must not fail tests.

The following weeks are going to be a pain in the ass; i already have a headache, my ears are blocked (i think i have a cold), my skin is drying and i have ulcers. arrrgh this is one of those moments where i can say i hateee the world. The next two weeks are going to be awfully stressing, i have my organic chem option paper, my chinese orals on boring culture, english orals on plath/frost/hamlet ?!, extended essay, cas, business ia due. I think i am going to plasmolysize and be totally drained out. I also think i need to lose weight and stop eating like a monster, but i cant work without eating cause everything bores me and i need to be kept..."interested". I also need to stop appearing self-obsessed with the number of times i have said "I" in this entry, please believe me, i'm really not!

The only thing i can look forward to now is escaping with jackie on the weekends, i think i might go watch him play ball tmr, but i'm not really sure cause i have a million things that i dont want to do to do. but saturday is going to be lovely awesome funny, we've made a deal and we're going to dress differently from usual + we're going to catch a movie (heartbreaker kid or hitman?), have a yummy lunch, go shoppingg for winter clothes and then have a nice neat dinner.

oh, &i'm 'selling' some stuff other the cut, see if you're interested (:

hmm, might buy these jackets if i get the chance too! my winter wardrobe is terribly boring...well it barely exists.

anyways...
ANYONE INTERESTED?
i'm thinking of selling this wool jacket from alloy at about $30. It's really lovely! &i've only worn it once, in superb condition. It's tagged a size m, wear it with just a top inside, or layerrr up (:
I won't be back in singapore till december...so i won't be selling it till then.
but if you read my journal and want it, then i'll reserve it for you :D

ready set go

2007-11-17T11:14:41Z

friday afternoon was very much anticipated for! the week was horrendous, alot of weird stuff about ..well i actually dont know but thats the whole point. it was woohoo really nice and breezy, and the majority of us crashed jackie's place. linkin park was also performing on friday!!!!! (!!!!) but it was impossible to get tickets, and they were so expensive :( but haha each other's company was even better. so while the lazy pigs stayed up to play halo 3 and be sadistic killing each other (it is very fun though, there's loads of new cool weapons), joseph and i spent our time hahaha watching lollipop (bang bang tang), hmm its really funny. we got bored though and we decided to go down to have some fuuun cause i wanted to see the becoming of barney hawk II. hahahaha, seeing barney learn how to skateboard is perhaps the funniest thing on earth. &it was really funny/cute to see the three boys racing each other =__= i can skateboard!! muahahhaa. better than barney at least. ok i can't really, cause i dont know how/dare to turn. i don't want to fall on the dirty road and dirty myself. but going straight...is a good cheap thrill already.

arrrgh, i got killed by joseph three times on halo, he keeps cheating and going invisible, and my reaction sucks and i keep pressing the wrong button and deleting my weapon instead of jumping. buuuut i killed him once, so i'm not a complete loser phew. joseph and i also had a pk basketball match! muhahaha i won him 2-1. he is really good for his age though, and he claims he only lost cause he doesnt dare to touch/hit me because i'm a girl.

oh i love joseph cause he likes taking photos with me and of me! haha jaaackie should be like that. eric & eileen met up with us for beowulf too, imax tickets were out! so we had to make do with the normal show. eileen and i checked up a whole lot of ms sixty stuff on sale before the movie, i need to earn some money quick (buy my clothes!) to go on a shopping spree. i am in dire need of shopping. charlottteee can you please help me order uo stuff online? i'll pay your mum back/pass her money when she comes here!

math test. chem test. chinese orals next week.
have to try study
kkloveyouallbyebye!

geeekazoid

2007-11-15T10:49:40Z

the mos burger tiramusi is soo pretty, i'm a sucker for small little glass bottle things. it really honestly so so amazing! &i don't even like tiramisu! well..its alright, not really my thing but for mos burger, i will. it is unfortunately a horrible ripoff. argh. i haven't been updating much lately, and i've been caught up with so many other things. I have a million deadlines catching up with me, ah kill myself for not doing them earlier. It's crazy. My brain cells are dying off at a faster rate now i believe, and they don't regenerate, i'm becoming dumber! I don't get shit in any class except bio, and just a 7 for that won't help me at all. UCL is now top ten in the world or so i hear......how am i going to get innnnnnnn craaap my life is screweeed this is teenage angst.

Now my "dates" with jackie even consists of doing math, business and english homework together, our lives are so sad. :(:(:( i think i'm on the verge of going into depression, i ramble too much and i think i need to shop really badly. ohyea! yay, jenn's sister is coming back from ny in december and she can buy uo for us. saveeed, just need to last 1 more month. and find $$.

People rarely read my journal, but thats ok i understand how horrendously mundane and boring my life is to read about. i wish i was one of the girls who partied and had all that awesome lovely pictures where you see girls looking so gorgeous, and having so much fun outside. I've also stopped taking that many photos...:(

on a side note, i really want a sweatshirt/hoodie like this!
can anyone genius amazing lovely make one for me? i'd paaaay.
it's so cute.

change

2007-11-01T16:18:45Z

the past week has been amazing.
5 of us and a gaziilion million cheeky kids.
(the boy next to me is called tang tang! sooo funny.)

just time away from civilisation and submerged into real love, kindness, joy and true friendships.

paperheros @ 2007-10-23T19:59:00

2007-10-23T12:59:18Z

i think i melted when you mouthed i love you across to me in english class today.

xoxo

2007-10-18T14:49:25Z

good morning ,starshine
the earth says hello!

yawn, i have spent the day pretty much just simply sleeping & eating.
my left eye has been sort of horrible lately, and i woke up this morning to see...only half of my world.
my left eye was stuck closed haha and my eyelids were all haywire. i looked like those mutated pandas i draw which is hahahha not to be shown in public! so muhahah i got to skip school (OHFINALLY! THANKYOUUU). with my eye disability it was pretty hard to do anything so i jus slept..and slept..and slept. hahaa. &thanks to eileen my super duper cool thankyouiloveyou partner, chem test has been postponed! dieee organic chem. she secretly went to channel some sympathy-evoking wave frequencies (ok i don't do physics, how do you say it?) to mr. redden at starbucks during lunch and then gathered the whole chem class to go beg him to postpone the test. saaaved.

ok so i did do soooomething today, hahah i wrote jackie a short random post-it and got him hahaha a kinder surprise. i havent had that for really long, but the chocolate shell is really goood! those were the good old days where we used to be so obsessed with guessing and piecing the toy inside. which brings me to think abt the days jackie and i first started going out. we used to have all these secret weekend gateaways where we'd had to tell our friends that we were busy with our parents. The lookouts we had to keep on the streets, after nearly being spotted by our classmates 3 times at the same place hahaa. the little acts of love, and phone conversation chain.

The first present lushao gave me was this camera keychain, it wasn't any special occassion. i think he spent quite abit on it, hmm it can even light up! my locker keys are on it now and yesyes a daily thing i carry around ;) one of my favourite posessions.

gogogofind dawnt. if you want a portrait drawn of you & your friends.
she's really good and sweet :)
i really envy people who have such a talent.

that feeling

2007-10-17T13:56:26Z

do you ever have that feeling, that feeling where its all tingly in your stomach, you're at a loss for words but you like exactly where you are in life now at that very moment. that feeling where you're all nervous, excited, happy, scared and yet..strangly sure about what this feeling is. do you? do you ever feel that way?

if you don't, then i don't make you feel the way you make me feel.

collection of dreams

2007-10-14T12:39:42Z

too cool to be true, i can't wait for the original copy to be sent to me!
friends for lifeee. the people i love being all retarded wishing me happy birthday! (:

ucl ucl ucl ! ucla ucla ucla ! uw uw uw! nyu nyu nyu!
i hope we all have one another in uni (:

摘星星

2007-09-11T12:39:53Z

摘不到的星星，
总是最闪亮的。
溜掉的小鱼，
总是最美丽的。
错过的电影，
总是最好看的。
失去的情人，
总是最懂我的。
我始终不明白，
这究竟是什么道理。

people just keep wanting more.

getaway

2007-08-22T17:07:11Z

getaway;
running away from the past, the present...life.

Pretty intense fun today, trav, jackie, jenn, chris & i went roaming around to take pictures for brewser's upcoming new album release.
it was freaking hot, poor trav & jenn had to wear hoodies in the heat hahaha.
pretty fun though, we go carried away many times, and chris started indirectly directing a porno shoot which was hilarious. gayass retard.

Doubts; they get the better of us all
till we walk away...
till we getaway.

PAINTBALLLL !

2007-08-10T05:01:07Z

Jenn & Stephen's Joint Birthday Celebration

paintball was fun :) ahhaa & painful, the guys suffered the most. the three girls had a really awesome special moment where only we could fire at the guys, and they were unarmed, and unprotected and could only run left and right. hahaha that was fun. go play paintball if you can! :)

13 reasons why i love being in tw

2007-07-28T08:23:22Z

Pool parties, barbeques, good music, alcohol and hella good company.
This is going to be one kickass year.
Soccer championships, lastcheckout's cd release, senior trip, music performances, random photo sessions, xohello, chej products, cambodia, partiesss, 18s to be (shit except me), senior year!

amanda + nurulia

2007-07-27T10:21:27Z

It's kind of intimidating going out with two gorgeous girls
but amanda and nurulia are sooo sooo fun to be around with.

my dogs

2007-07-24T14:40:50Z

meet my dogs; nikki and spot.

if there's one thing i always miss whenever i return back to tw, its my dogs.
hahhaa, the two of them are abit...erm whacko.

i don't have any pictures of my black mixed lab, nikki cause surprisingly enough she knows what all sorts of cameras look like, phone cameras, digital cameras, my slr, my lomos, sheeeessh. i can never get a decent picture.
&while she's really fierce and domineering (she bit off spot's ear before ouch) she's racist. to the extent that its pretty hilarious. ok not really but hahahha my black dog is TERRIFIED of black people. she hides under the stairs, runs under the table or back to the kitchen where she feels safe. i think she's sort of senile too, alittle..off. Nikki acts as an alarm clock and barks without fail every morning at 4am. She however als responds to "shut up!".
she runs up and down the stairs like a mad women for fun. She's scared of eggshells, and the large green sheets which have holes in them. hahahaha. she walks in a druken lopsided digonal manner on my garden just to avoid it.

&then there's spot. haha if anyone else has seen him in thepast. looook thats what he looks like now! He used to be a FAT COW PIG. there was even once a chinese tourist came asking whether it was a pig dog. ..he used to sit and rest about after every 50m. Spot now has curves, its pretty cool. He's alittle crazy too, if you go to near him he like to try and bite off your nose. i guess he's still very much a pig at heart. He has rashes though, and cannot survive without his medication which is why his body is pretty much ..bald most of the time.

If there's anything i miss, its the constant company and entertainment my two dogs give me in singapore.

paperheros @ 2007-07-19T22:57:00

2007-07-19T15:02:34Z

out with ihatethismonday & jadedmannequin tmr!
yay <3 can't wait.
lots of photos for sure.

another day

2007-07-16T09:31:27Z

unfulfilled movie plans, shopping, freaking long dinner queues, spicy hot basil beef rice, "ice ice ask for ice!", past relationships, old crushes, declining population of cute boys, illegal photos, running away, secret phototaking, wowwhee cool neoprints, starbucks, toilet search, the old times :)

"oei oei! girrls, not allowed to take photos here, cannot cannot! but eh! this background is nicer, quickly come here take then stop ok! hurry hurry!"

okay hahah yuck unglam retards.
ariel rachel <3
saturday was good.

june/july

2007-07-11T16:00:17Z

june was a crazy month,
and it slowed down to a lovely july.

so whats been happening is...
jackiejackiejackie
moulinrouge
bball!
jihyeleaving:(
kevin'sbirthday
sleepovers<3

&now that i'm back to singapore
i have horrible math tuition,
loads of math homework
world lit
extended essay
to complete before i head back to tw on the 21st

shit.
i hope life has been good for the rest of you!
ps, grace if you ever read this..HAPPY BIRTHDAY <3

joseph

2007-07-01T11:06:33Z

while jackie was busy at piano, his smartass little brother decided that we should go stalk him
& haha made me run like mad in circles in my jeans. &then ice cream for both of us :)

he's a pimp! he offered to run home to get money to treat me haha.
haha now this is my favourite lushao.

IB

2007-07-01T10:50:02Z

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